I gave in.

What a day this has been. My V-times, as I have verbally abbreviated it this holiday [yes I meant to say 'times' and not 'tines'. So what, I'm five.], Day was filled with all of the following pictures, thoughts, conversations, etc.

Start off the day right with Whole Hearts and a whole heart.

Nothing says Happy Ordinary Day like a peppy attitude and yummy gluten-free cereal.

{sayonara commercial...}

Some thoughts:

"Putrid. Valentines are putrid. But that doesn't mean I hate them."

"Your face is so soft. Why is it so soft??" (girls' hands proceed to smother my face with their caresses.) My thoughts about it- "Hmmm... I hope a male will appreciate that fact some day." So sue me, I'm a hopeless romantic.

"Strawberries are red, blueberries are blue...... something something something... something me and you."

The dinner and goodies:

- steak

- free Coldstone I-c-e-c [yeah, yeah, thanks Brown-tone!]

- some kind of pudding with strawberries and whipped cream

{cheers.}

- cinnamon lips and

- Dove chocolates with the message wrappers

I can't even explain the irony of this ^^^. But I will. So yesterday, the day of remembrance, I obv was remembering him. Not in a longing way, but just plain old thinking back. That's it. And it brought me such joy to think of all the meaningful times we had together, just being really great friends, and caring genuinely for one another. I couldn't stop smiling when I was around him; I was truly happy. Well, today he came up some more in random discussions. For example, today at the thespian lunch table where I sit for lunch e'eryday, Amy [the best frump] and I were discussing how she won't get married unless I do. [It isn't logical, so don't dwell on it for too long.] I started ranting about meeting someone at BYU in the coming years who will seem perfect, but he'll end up crushing my heart into mill trill smithereens, and ConCon blurted, "Wait... I thought you were waiting for Specimen #4?" {obv he said his real life name though... nbd.} I have never let out such a laugh as I did in that moment. He looked utterly confused. All I said was, "Yeah right. Who gave you that idea?" Don't get me wrong. I adore that kid. But those types of feelings for him are long gone.

I completed every one of these tasks :

Be your own Valentine {check}, Hug someone today {check}, and share a secret {check}.

"Savor small romantic moments" Yeah right. As if I have any of those.

The deep conversation:

Exposition-: Gentleman #2 is Specimen #4's younger brother. Do you follow? Right then. Plot- It's complicated to tell all the background in a short paragraph so we'll {we meaning I} just start in medias res [you're welcome Ms. Shelley for paying attention in class.] and hopefully you'll catch on. Feel free to ask questions if you're confused. Here are our {mine and GM#2's} collective thoughts about this holdiay--

I decided to be indifferent to the holiday today. I decided, you know what? It's just a day. Just an ordinary day. I have no reason to hate on the day of love merely because I myself am single. I also have no reason to mope that I don't have someone to call my own; I am a young lady who has a lot on my plate, and I am not even looking for that kind of commitment right now in my life. I'm happy with who I am, and I appreciate the people I associate with, but Valentine's Day, much like Christmas, has become too commercialized. It's the world's way of trying to escape from the true happiness and good things that can be found in the world, through positive relationships with people and love. To me, it's about love. True love. The material things won't last, and I believe that love should be shown in the most real ways possible. Service should be rendered and kind words of encouragement spoken.The sooner people realize that love is the center of everything in life, everything will make sense! But many people's definitions of love are different. Let it not be confused with anything but this-- God is Love. And love can be found in other people when we have positive relationships to see good things in each other, because God is working inside all of us, and we're learning to perfect ourselves in Him, meaning good qualities of God can be found in us all. They are all unique. When love is present, it is selfless and centered upon God and His plan. When you honestly and truly love someone, you want to do anything to help them help themselves. It's about developing the relationship into more than just "I love you"s and spending time together. It's almost like unifying two hearts. Love is such a powerful thing, we can't even fully understand it! But I'm so excited for marriage so we can really grasp and experience it. It's the best feeling ever.

And there you have it, folks. Aren't we just the deepest things since quicksand? [minus the last sentence. I don't think we know what marriage is even like]

The ideal [and only] V-times gift I would love to receive:

this is irrelevant to my dream Valentine. I just made it in photography class...

-A single rose. Maybe white or a peachy color. Just one. I like to keep it simple.

-A kiss on the forehead. I have a major fetish with those. But the explanation will be saved for tomorrow.

-A wonderful man to render me some service and show that he truly cares about me. 

 And that's it. Nothing commercial, just true love.

Tell me: What is your ideal V-times gift and/or date?