Invisible ink

How silly of me. Here I've been mentioning giving away marbles, and I didn't even post an explanation of my theory about them! This was supposed to be posted before I got my cast off. Which was awhile ago. Anyway, hopefully this will shed some light if you were confused about this post.

"These days
Everything is all about different.
Different shoes, different hair,
Different opinions.

But what is so great about having to be different?

I have to wear a purple cast
Much larger than the normal kind.
I have to hobble with two sticks called crutches, but I can't even hobble straight.
I run into walls and feel myself falling uncontrollably.
People look at me funny. But why?
Aren't I different? Isn't different good?

Oh. So I'm a different kind of different. But shouldn't my different be different from your different? If I was your kind of different, it would take away your differentness. Instead, it would create a sameness between us, wouldn't it?

So, in reality, everyone wants to be different, but we are all attempting the same kind of different.
Therefore

Aren't we all trying to be the same?

It's not that I want to be labeled as one who "follows the crowd," but I simply don't care for consciously trying to be the most unique person. I don't believe in hipster. I believe that the best way to develop yourself into your own unique is to look to others. People look to their friends and peers and subconsciously mimic some of their attributes. It's like trading marbles.

The Marble Theory:

Every human being starts life with one hundred marbles. No less, no more. As life experiences happen and as we cross paths with other homo sapiens, we trade marbles. So think of a close friend you had in high school. You probably traded about forty marbles with him/her. Those forty marbles plus the sixty of your original create a new you. Now let's say you dated a boy/girl and gave them fifty of your marble mixture. But it turns out that he/she only feels like giving you fifteen marbles {aka you've been friend-zoned}. You are left with a slight discrepancy. That small discrepancy causes more adjustments to who you are. At the end of your life, hopefully you've given all your marbles and received all new marbles. People are more colorful and brilliant when they've shared a little of their uniqueness with other unique souls.

You don't have to try to be different, but you don't necessarily have to try to be the same. Just be the you that comes naturally to you.

My different may be different from your different, but my marbles are freely given. I have become who I am because I am quick to love. Quick to trust others with my marbles. I have experienced many discrepancies, but that has merely made me who I am.

I am my own kind of me."

P.S. I'm absolutely heart broken about The Bachelor. But we'll wait to talk about it until I'm not in shock.